Cikgu Hamid

Source: Personal File
My grandfather, Abdul Hamid. Source: Personal File

 

I wish that my grandfather was still alive. I was almost two years old when he passed away. My father told me that each time we had the chance to visit him, I’ll always asked him to carry me around for a stroll at a nearby playground. I don’t really have any memory of him. But I wish I do.

If he was still alive, he sure will give me a piece of his good advice. You see, I’m leaving on the edge for quite a while now. My life is a mess. I am happily married and blessed with a wonderful young boy. But, I am affraid that the happiness wont last long. I know that love is not everything in this world. You need to have both; money and love.

Dear love, do you know how smart you are? Well, I know that you are a hard working person, that will try her very best to do what ever she can to achieve her goals. But look at you now. What happen to you? Where is that high spirited girl that I know? Why do you end up at home? What happen in pursuing your ambition? I am sad to see you like this love. As if all of your motivation and determination had banished from your mind.

I know how you feel. I know that sometimes, it is difficult to change. But sometime change can make you a better person. Look at you now, you have no goals and you are stuck at zero. Get up love! I know you can. Go out there and be a part of something big. It’s ok to dream big, because when you dream big, you have a destination to go. I know you can love! You always do find your way. I will always pray that one day, you will make everyone that you know look up to you. Chin up girl! Go make your dream a reality!

I wish he was still alive so that he could say those words to me. I wish that he would take my hand and help me to get out of this mess. I could just wish. I miss you grandpa. I always do.

*for the Daily Prompts: Modern Family

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4 thoughts on “Cikgu Hamid

  1. But he is with you. With each thought and each desire to do more he is there with you encouraging you. Use the words that you wrote to motivate you as if he was speaking to you. AS you stand in the moment that you are in close your eyes and take a deep breath. Then sit down and write down some goals that you want to accomplish and then write down how you think you can accomplish them. Speak with your husband about these desires and hopefully he will be there to help and support you. Take care and know that you can overcome this and that your grandfather IS with you.

    1. thank you so much. i really apreciate the thought.. i will sit down n have a chat with my husband about this. hopefully things will get better soon. thanks again ^_^

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